We aren’t protected anymore. We can’t come home to our mom and ask her to fix everything. I’m an adult. I’m a member of society as of the moment I started college. It doesn’t really feel like anything is any different. I still go to class. I still have homework that I push off until Sunday night. But it’s very different. I have an enormous debt, no car, no steady job, no cat to come home too. I don’t even have a permanent place to stay.  But I do have someone who loves me very much. And right now that’s what counts. Later, everything will fall into place. I have to trust that it will otherwise I’ll become this cranky old lady who looks at the world as 99.9% terrible. And honestly, I’m done with thinking that way.

You can thank my sister for telling me that joke at 2 am this morning!

I wish I could show it to you guys, but I’m not sure if I should since it is a homework assignment. Plus I really don’t want anyone stealing my ideas. But if you are curious, or if you’re willing to look at it and give me feed back, I’d be more than happy to email it to you. Just leave a comment or send me a message!

Speaking of hipsters, I found a few jokes…

• You know you’re a hipster when your personalized stationary is made from elephant poop
• How many hipsters does it take to screw in a light bulb? It’s a very unique number, you’ve probably never heard of it.
• If a tree falls down in a forest and no one is around to hear it, will a hipster buy the album?
• How did the hipster burn his tongue? He drank tea before it was cool
• Killed a hipster. Now he’s just somebody that I used to know…
• I heard a hipster drowned today. I believe he fell into the mainstream
• You know you’re hipster when you create a Myspace because Facebook is too mainstream.
• you know you’re a hipster when you think fanny packs are cool
• Have you heard the new hipster joke? I have it on vinyl
• Why do hipsters love the subway? Because it’s underground
• Why is the deaf hipster the best kind of hipster? Because they like bands they’ve never even heard of

That’s all I’ve got right now, if you’ve got anymore comment and add! Everyone could use a good joke!

(sorry if this offends anyone)

My next goal is to go for an entire week without missing a day.

Anyway, this weekend was the most incredible weekend I’ve had in a very long time. I got to spend it all with my lovely man. (That sounded weird. My facial expression was even weirder though). We walked on the break-wall, went off-roading, went bowling, suffered through a game of football at a bar with his family and neighbors, played video games, watched movies and long-boarded (well he did, I watched).

Yes, that last part was random….but now I have an idea for an even better post.

I went to my first class today – Biology. Snore.

Then went to hang out with my fiance. We kind of hit a bump in the road and I just collapsed. When he dropped me off I remembered all of the terrible things I’ve done in my life, all of the bumps in the road that the two of us had been through and to top it all of my month old tragus ear piercing is infected, getting worse and hurts so badly that I had to down two aspirins. I weeped like a baby in his car when he dropped me off. He gave me a hug goodbye and my face was soaked in tears automatically. Which resulted in him being late. That made me feel a bit worse. Like here I am, this selfish girl keeping him from getting an education all because I could not keep those darn tears inside my eyeballs!

That was when I decided I’d go back to the room, put on some sweat pants (aka the I-give-up-on-life-pants) and call the health center. Turns out, there weren’t any available times for today! Which is just my luck when something actually goes pretty wrong, so now I have to go another day in pain, and awkwardly hold my hair over my ear so no one can see my infection.

So I decided to wallow in my dorm room after that. My roommate came in shortly after, and we hugged and she tried to cheer me up. Then he texted me when he was done with class, asking me where I was.

“In my room eating my feelings”

Was my exact reply. And I was. I had my jar of peanut butter, and my Oreos and I was going at it like a mad man. I ate an entire row of Oreo cookies in about 45 minutes. It was not pretty. My teeth were black from the cookies and I had peanut butter everywhere, on my sleeve, on my blanket, everywhere.

After that things got better though. He came over and hugged me, we talked and he told me one of the most beautiful things. He said that no matter what comes our way, no matter what how many logs are rolled in our way, or how many times we get shoved in a trench, we will make it out because we have each other. It was something that I had always told myself, but the fact that he said it to me out loud, in an attempt to make me feel better, made me believe it.

Do I want to do my homework? No.

I’m stalling, it’s true and the hours left of the night are slowly dwindling down but to my defense I have been sitting in my dorm room alone, doing homework for the past two days and I am running out of steam.

I am definitely coming down with a cold too. Thank you bipolar Michigan weather!

Right now I’ve got a mug of warm green tea next to my computer and I am surrounded by a moat of books and notebooks and pencils. I really wish that right now I had the motivation to write about something that would interest other people, but I don’t. Hell, I can’t even find the motivation to write my paper comparing a nonwestern movie to a western movie. Which is pretty sad because I’ve been looking forward to writing it since Friday night. I’d really like to share with you guys what I’ve come up with but I don’t think  it’s a good idea until I get my paper back from the professor.

Anyway, tomorrow is my fiance’s birthday! He and I are going out with his family to a restaurant of his choice for dinner and I bought a pretty cute dress from Target to wear to it. I had to through it in the wash and dryer to shrink it up a bit so now it’s incredibly wrinkly! Believe it or not, I have never ironed anything in my life. Nor have I ever care about ironing anything in my life! So it will be interesting to see how it works out tonight.

Alright, well I just realized that I probably made you bored out of your mind. So I’m going to go procrastinate with something else for a while.

PS – I wrote that whole post with an English accent in my mind. I’m still doing it right now!

That seems a little daunting because I know that during the weekends I’m rarely home let alone by my computer so I will give myself some lee-way. If I miss a day that means I must write twice as much the next to keep up with my points!

So far I think I only have 6 points haha but it’s only been two days so I have a lot of room to grow!

Take the challenge with me! Log in you 750 words at 750words.com!! And you can keep me posted with your points!! If anyone does this with me, I will send you a cookie in the mail. Any kind of cookie you want, I’ll bake it and send it to you!

Here’s the link:

http://750words.com/

It’s an incredible website! You login and everyday you get email reminders to go to the website and write 750 words or more. When you do you get points! And who doesn’t like getting points?! When you finish writing for that day you get evaluated, it tells you what kind of mood your writing has, how many words per minute you type, which words you used the most and so many other cool and helpful things.

I hope that even if you don’t have time to write everyday, or even if you aren’t an aspiring writing like myself, you try it out at least for a month just to see how it feels. I’ve kind of been using it as a sort of diary, and it’s a great place to start drafting ideas for future school papers because it saves you work so that you can go back to it. It’s all private, unless you choose to share it.